Diary of an Aes Sedai - Part Two
Author: Alenya Al'Roran
Published: February 9 2021 - Tar Valon Times Blog Link
20 Amadine 881 NE
I did it. Almost 30 months to the day since my name went into the Novice book. They finally noticed my potential and skill and raised me to Accepted. The test was difficult, and I didn’t like what I saw, but I don’t care. It’s not like any of it will really happen. My fears are my own and I will control them and make sure they don’t come true. I know I can do it.
10 Choren 881 NE
Being an Accepted is not as great as I thought it would be. Sure, I finally have my ring and there’s some color on my dress, but I still get punished, they still complain about my attitude, and now I have even more work to do than I did as a Novice. I thought Accepted were supposed to be preparing to be raised Aes Sedai? How could I possibly be ready if all they’re going to do is treat me like a Novice? I’ll just have to show them I need to be one of them. Somehow.
2 Taisham 882 NE
I’ve started visiting the various Ajahs in their quarters. The Aes Sedai send for me for lessons, but I think they’re sizing me up just as much as I am them. I am sure I’m not Brown because there is no way I could handle all of that research and stuff. What do they see in those dusty old books anyway? I’ve always hated going to the library, and I don’t think that’s going to change any time soon. The Greens claim they need to be ready to fight in the Last Battle. I’ve thought about it, and I’m not even sure I would want to fight, so I think they’re out. The Grays like to mediate things and study law. Boring. More studying. They’re out.
When I think of White, I can only be reminded of my Novice dress and I hated wearing it and the Whites in the Tower all seem to wear white all the time. Why would they do that when it’s the same lack of color the Novices wear? No. It seems illogical to me, which makes them all a bunch of hypocrites. Yellows help people. Why? Why waste their strength on dumb peasants and other idiots who get hurt doing things people shouldn’t do anyway? And they’re always studying new ways to heal or something. Boring, boring, boring. I thought being Aes Sedai would be fun, but all they do is work. I guess this means my choices are down to Blue and Red. I can’t figure out what the Reds do except sit around all day and wait for some man to start channeling so they can go track him down. The Blues claim to be about causes. I wonder if my cause could be me?
